I'm lost when it comes to emotions right now. I don't know what I should be feeling or even if I should feel anything. I'm still counting the months & the days, wondering if I'll make it through & then when I write these entries I wonder if I even want to let go. I was so afraid & still am. What if I lose all the memories? Lately, I've been thinking that I'll never be married, & that I will never be good enough & I won't accomplish anything & the more I think that way - the more I want to move on. I realize a part of me will always be gone now but I remember an entry I had posted awhile back (from a chain letter) that I didn't believe because it had me going against the odds of love. Third times the charm.
I can only hope.
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