I'd love to say that your words don't hurt me, but if I did-I would be lying. & I was hurt badly in fact I'm unsure if my emotions for you will be restored. You're changing-with me- & everything else. But I guess what I'm trying to say is-I don't want it to change & I don't want those memories or feelings to fade away. I wish everything could have felt the same. But that isn't possible & we can't change it. I just miss having such an amazing feeling now when all I've felt lately is hurt, regret, pain, guilt. I know it could be worse but I'm trying to focus on making it better. I don't know what to do--& I need your help. After all, we are suppose to be in this together.
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