2005-09-25 @ 8:38 p.m.

You know the things I cannot say. So why bother asking me about them? I hate when I have to lie but I'm more afraid then anyone. As much as I say & try to believe I have no fears, I'm the opposite. I'm afraid of a variety of things I probably shouldn't be scared of. But I am. & more emotion comes out of me every day now. I hate who I'm becoming, & love it at the same time. But when I look in a mirror I can't recognize myself anymore. At all. & that frightens me too.

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