I'm so sick of crying. I wish I could just not have any of the feelings anymore because the suffering & stress & pain this is all causing me doesn't feel like it will ever be worth whatever is suppose to come in the end of it all. I really do feel like I have strained through that much that basically nothing can make up for the damage that has been done. It hurts more than anything & I want it to be over.
Disclaimer
It is your choice whether or not to read this diary. The most I can ask is that you do not question me about it - I would rather not know if you have been reading it at all or even how you came to find it. Everything I have posted in this diary is what I had been thinking at the exact time I posted it. This diary is for me personally, and me alone. If I have written something you dislike: stop reading.
