I feel as if I know all the secrets of the universe & exactly how to apply them. But it's the timing that I have issues with, what & when is difficult to choose. I desire so many things in life but deciding when I want to receive them is a different story. I'm enjoying life in itself but I hate all the emotions & suffering you need to endure with it. Sometimes I feel like I'm better off alone but then I'll have low moods & bad days when I know I just need somebody there.
More than anything - I'm afraid of being alone for the rest of my life. I have one year & one month left for this goal & I worry that I'm not going to make it even though I shouldn't.
So much for writing more positive entries.

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